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to see me sin so heynously agaynst God & to violate

those bonds w^ch I ought to have maintayned w^th her self

& I cannot but conclude it was matter of bodily weak

=nesse to her , God alone knows whither it did hasten her

end yea or no. but I begge y^e Lords pardon for my sin

therein & desire y^t God would help me to carry with self

=abhorrence to carry it as my dayly burthen to my grave

and yet doe humbly begge y^r pray^rs dayly for me at y^e

throne of grace , that y^e Lord would for X^t his sake give

me more & more , a genuine sight & sense of sin in

general & this in special , that I may see it as it is in

itself highly provoking to God, & y^e Lord w^d be pleased

so to set it home to my heart  by his Spirit  y^t I may

show forth my true Repentance in an humble holy watch-

=full walking before Him & that all y^e dayes of my Life.

As touching my coming to your selves I can say safely that

I could willingly repent that w^th my mouth w^ch I have done

w^th my pen , but for y^s 2 reasons in Special. 1 from my

leaving my family remote w^th out Help , & the publick Im=

ploym^t I am in for the Town , w^th my mill. w^ch Reasons I

trust you will be pleased to count of weight.  I shall

not trouble you further at present but doe once & agayne

begge you would be owne pleased to own me as a

poor Sinfull Brother & still to pray for me, who is

       Your unworthy Brother

Attested by us

  Thomas Wetman                   Thomas       Miller

  Andrew Warner.                       his marke

After y^e Reading of these L.^rs. Bro Daniel Harris (the most fav^rable

witnesse of his Repentance was present now & askt whither he

could judge, Him pænitent or Not? He answered that he had some

reflection in his mind, that he c^d not not so fully & freely say if he

was pænitent ––

Hereupon it was propounded as a m^r to be considered till next Sabb–

=ath whither the s^d Miller should be Censured ––

Sept: 29  It was agayn mentioned, & M^r Collins his report to y^e

same purpose w^th y^e Testimony of y^e 4 Brethren in y^r L.^r. mentioned

                                       yet

Sc: His Conversation was Civill indeed, not as of one deeply sensible

of y^t sin.   And in y^e Eyes of Brethren there he was such an

one as that he thought y^e Church hier would give off-

=ence if they did not Excommunicate Him.   And it was

then Voted y^t y^e sentence should be pronounced next Sabbath