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exceeding great, from whence flow such broad streams & De[ep][66]

channels of Unrighteousness as this is ; What a charme of

Satan to me by vertue of Divine Revenging justice, & [w^t]

price is y^t y^t Redeems from this thralldome w^ch [formerly]

I have despised & I desier to be ashamed, I am & have bin

confounded on this account : I acknowledge y^t because I

have sinned & thus sinned, that to me belongs shame & con

=fusion as it is at this Day: Oh y^t my head were waters

myne Eyes a fountayne of teares[67] y^t I might allwayes bewayle

the plague of my Heart.  joy & gladnesse are departed from

me, & scarce dare I look upwards  I should surely be [in] a pit

of sorrows were it not as you quote  y^t y^r is Hope in

Israel concerning this thing.[68] But sure, we are not for to

to fly away from God, but for God to fly away from sin

                                           & y^t

Repentance is Commanded & required of all men in ord^r to Re

                                            ^

=mission, you quote [shall a man fall & not arise turne away;

& not Returne][69] I say he should not be so unreasonably

sottish : I hope y^e Lord hath given me some Degrees of

sound repentance. I am sorry for my sin, I confesse it to be

      very

Exceeding great , I pray to be pardoned , the comfortating

receiving glad tidings of Remission pronounced in y^t doctrine

w^rin & whereby Remissiõ is p^reached to y^e penitent is y^e

balsame y^t can heale me; I desire y^t all Israel may hea[re]

& feare & doe no such wickednesse, as I have done, & [illeg.]

one be amazed at y^t bitter roote w^ch beares such gall &

wormwood as this is; Let None be bold to sin by my Exam[ple]

but feare to be Dishonnourous of God as I have bin lest

they be hung up as Examples of his infinite disp[leasure]

& become ye griefe of y^e Godly & y^e derision of y^e scorn-

=full as I am.   oh! y^t I could warne you all, my Dear

Brethren , to be jealous of y^r hearts, of y^r Tempter, to be

earnest w^th God for help, oh y^t some good might come

of this great Evill , & y^t you would forgive my sin

as concerns you , that y^e great congregation may have Ca[use]

to prayse Him , who notwithstanding many great offences [is]

Rich in Mercy to all y^t call upon Him. I feare y^t in [my]

aggravation I fayle , I desier you would impute it to it an

overburthened Spirit: I desier to Heare from you to have

farther Directions & that you would not reject me. I

intreate your earnest publique & private prayers for

finall Recovery from all my sins especially from this great

sin of Uncleannesse (w^ch I confesse I am guilty of) & from [all]

Evill.  Thus, hoping that y^e God & father of o^r Lord Jesus [X^t]

will make you instrumentall to apply his mind further to me, by a [sor]

=rowfull Spirit w^th his & your favour , I doe to what is a[bove]

written unfeignedly subscribe desiring to be

                            Your pænitent & unworthy brother in [X^t]

                             The mark of

                                    Thomas   ––––– Mill[er]